I' m done. I don't care anymore. I have my friends and I don't need anymore. I have my family and I don't need anymore there either. I recently quit on 2 of my closest friends ever. I am just done with them both. One is in prison and I am one of the few who has been there for him through this sentance and twice he has tried to take me away from the man I thought I loved! TWICE! but ya know, that man just so happens to be his BOY- THEYS BROTHAS! lol. my ass! Plus his baby momma is one of my best friends as well, and they are always off and on, it'll never change. So I am now done with him. I was talking to him face to face about what's in my heart, and he skipped right over that shit. so whatever. I ain't going to Oklahoma with him this December. It would be too uncomfortable of a situation.

THEN we have my other best friend... The man I THOUGHT I was in love with a while back.. HA! That was funny. Sorry.. lol... ok I'm done laughing now... lol... ok. OK. So we dated yet again. Got back together in april i think, for like 4 months. I tried so hard to convince my self that he was what I wanted and that I was soooo happy with him....it just didn't work. So i refuse to live my life putting someone before all others when I barely exist to them. So I let go. I quit. I finally told him that I no longer consider him a priority and he took it all wrong... whatever... and I wanted us to stay friends, just didn't want him calling me his best friend anymore, cause I'm not. But he took it wrong, so I tried to explain it, but he didn't wanna hear it. so whatever. He ran over my foot. and i jumpes up with an adrenalin rush n chased hi car and busted out a light on the side. I was on cruches and in a knee im-mobilizer and an ace bandage. My knee is sprained on top of already having needed surgery. My foot has severe tissue damage. I am just pissed. And when he tried to apoligize for it... I told him to never speak to me again. He no longer matters to me. His children do, but he does not. I now consider him my biggest mistake. I am done.

And as for any other friends who consider me an actual Friend and not just an aquaintance... you can make an effort to be in my life just as I make to be in yours. I am tired of feeling like I don't matter. That is why I only hang out with a few people. I love my friends. They are really there for me when I need them, I don't know what I would do without them.